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This is my invitation for the exhibition - front, inside and back. It has a long history. When the time came to print the invitations I didn't have money left. I had already used all my money [3000 $US] to pay for all the other parts of my exhibition. It's a lot of money for me because I can only save money when I sell some canvasses. I was really broke. So I asked my father to help me and pay for it. He said yes... until he saw it!
I had it designed by an advertising company belonging of some friends of mine. All those people that you see in the front of the invitation were naked. When my parents saw that they almost killed me!
My father said: "IF YOU DON'T COVER THOSE PARTS, I'LL NOT PAY!!".
I really didn't want to cover them; but I didn't want to give up my exhibition, so I covered them. I know I sold out. I hate to do that, but I'm not so strong I can stand losing all the work I had done already to prepare everything. I'm young and I still have many things to learn. I think it was a good lessen. I know it'll help me to become stronger.
It says "Re-pensando o ser que pensa que pensa". This is hard to translate but it means something like "Re-thinking about the being that intends to think"
This shows the floorplan of the house where I did my exhibition and how the rooms were divided up.
The Portuguese text means something like this:
All of this started with a "yes". A thought said "yes" to another, and all of this was born. But before everything there was the "yes". It has always existed. I don't know what existed; but I know that all of this never started. The freedom that I sometimes felt didn't come from clear reflections, but it came from a condition made of perceptions so organic that it couldn't be a thought. Some times at the end of a sensation there is a vibration which gives an idea of its color and species.
All this started because it was against something. This is my scream against the routine. It is against the renunciation of freedom, against lust, against censure, against those persons that just play at doing and being; just playing roles - in a house - a cook - a married daughter - visits - with a job - with a farm - with a chess game - with newspapers. It is against people that love each other in a distant and cold way, and those persons that sometimes, being busy with their toys, look at each other unquietly to assume that they are still alive and after that go back to the warm distance that gets small when someone gets sick or when it's someone's birthday. All of them sleep without pleasure in the malice.
It's against anyone who thinks with satisfaction "I'm an employee, a virgin and I like coke." It's against anyone who thinks that the "radio-watch" is important because it shows the right time, culture and advertisements. It is against any who sit in chains where there is nothing to distinguish them from the rest of the nothing.
With this I lose my mind. I find the biggest serenity in the hallucination. To judge yourself means being very serious and complex. Those who are simple don't think so much about themselves. If you can understand me, ok. If you can't, it's better! Happiness is in the creation. To find this happiness it is necessary to have courage. I know that it's scary to get out of yourself; but everything that's new scares. The simplicity in the human being is recognized in being able to go beyond conscience and thinking, without setting them aside - to become free of both. Don't deceive them, but neither be their prisoner. For this we need courage, an abnormal courage. Courage is a weak sensibility compared to fear, because it's not as often felt, because it's a standing against, and because it pleases. Courage is a quality existing in both bad and good humans.
If you're brave, come.
I don't know if you'll understand. Even in the original Portuguese a lot of people didn't understood.
If you click on a particular room in this image you will be taken to it.
These are the thanks to everybody that helped me - some friends, my father and many name-brand clothes companies [like LEVIS and HUGO BOSS]